I seek solitude because it's the only place I can find peace. Between so-called "Christians" using God to browbeat me over my art and everyone else turning their backs on me, solitude is the only place where I can actually use my free will to find my real identity.
I seek solitude because I'm tired of God being weaponized against me. Christians today are utterly spineless, and in my experience they use God, "prophecy", and other things to simply drag people down.
I'm tired of my art, my love for creativity that I'm so passionate about, being belittled as something that's "not God's Will." Meanwhile they use prophecy to excuse the sheer level of evil that THEIR COWARDICE allowed to run amok.
I never mistake solitude for loneliness. It's important l to protect your peace. It's not selfish. I know many Christians that use God as a shield to protect themselves from truths they can't hold. Truths that disrupt their beliefs that God with prayer and good deeds will protect them. I do not adhere to that belief. God wants all our attention. God does not want the performance of being a good Christian. Because I see for many thats all they are doing. He knows what is in your soul. In the solitude that is where I find him, not in the noise. My pastor is exceptional. He doesn't distort scripture. He doesn't say your life will be easier if you are a Christian. He says your faith in Christ is your only redemption. My point is, God says we are in the world but not of it. God is not the author of chaos.
This is something I go to God about quite often (I'm starting to use this wording instead of "this is something I struggle with"). I have plenty of relationships online, but aside from my church group for 1.5 hours each week, I notice most people (in 🇺🇸 at least) are on their phones while I'm trying to be present.
The flakiness in this country is next-level. And me being a man who feels and thinks deeply, it's tough for me to have surface-level conversations. In this season I've been in for over a year, I'm spending a lot of time alone. But it's serving a purpose (as with everything He does). My prayer life has leveled up tremendously, and He is teaching me how to sit with and regulate the little boy who never got his needs met. I'm doing the best I can as far as "putting myself out there" while at the same time setting boundaries and not tolerating flakiness. It's hard up here in Babylon! 😂
I seek solitude because it's the only place I can find peace. Between so-called "Christians" using God to browbeat me over my art and everyone else turning their backs on me, solitude is the only place where I can actually use my free will to find my real identity.
I seek solitude because I'm tired of God being weaponized against me. Christians today are utterly spineless, and in my experience they use God, "prophecy", and other things to simply drag people down.
I'm tired of my art, my love for creativity that I'm so passionate about, being belittled as something that's "not God's Will." Meanwhile they use prophecy to excuse the sheer level of evil that THEIR COWARDICE allowed to run amok.
I never mistake solitude for loneliness. It's important l to protect your peace. It's not selfish. I know many Christians that use God as a shield to protect themselves from truths they can't hold. Truths that disrupt their beliefs that God with prayer and good deeds will protect them. I do not adhere to that belief. God wants all our attention. God does not want the performance of being a good Christian. Because I see for many thats all they are doing. He knows what is in your soul. In the solitude that is where I find him, not in the noise. My pastor is exceptional. He doesn't distort scripture. He doesn't say your life will be easier if you are a Christian. He says your faith in Christ is your only redemption. My point is, God says we are in the world but not of it. God is not the author of chaos.
This is something I go to God about quite often (I'm starting to use this wording instead of "this is something I struggle with"). I have plenty of relationships online, but aside from my church group for 1.5 hours each week, I notice most people (in 🇺🇸 at least) are on their phones while I'm trying to be present.
The flakiness in this country is next-level. And me being a man who feels and thinks deeply, it's tough for me to have surface-level conversations. In this season I've been in for over a year, I'm spending a lot of time alone. But it's serving a purpose (as with everything He does). My prayer life has leveled up tremendously, and He is teaching me how to sit with and regulate the little boy who never got his needs met. I'm doing the best I can as far as "putting myself out there" while at the same time setting boundaries and not tolerating flakiness. It's hard up here in Babylon! 😂